I think everything is going to be ok. I think.
After sending my long rambling email to Sir yesterday afternoon I was in a bit of a panic. Would he interpret it the right way? Have I just screwed it all up? I didn’t sleep well, it took me forever to fall asleep and I must have been restless because I woke up just exhausted and have been yawning all day.
But, when I woke up this morning there was a text from Sir thanking me for my email and letting him know what was on my mind. He said the second he had the time to properly devote to answering my questions he would and to sit tight. So I am. Sitting tight.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still terrified of what those answers are going to be, but at least I know he is receptive to what I had to say/express/ask and he hasn’t just gone running for the hills. What will ultimately happen though I don’t know yet. I am still “sitting tight” and trying to not get into a worst-case scenario mental spiral. I am learning so much about myself, my submission and D/s in general since meeting him and I would hate to lose that. But I am cautiously optimistic. I mean, he wouldn’t have sent me x’s and o’s if he was going to tell me to screw off, right?! LOL fingers crossed
All in all I am glad I was open about how I was feeling. Relationships of any kind can’t exist (not in a healthy positive way at least) without communication, especially D/s ones.
Keep your fingers (and toes, and arms and legs if you like) for me friends 🙂 And I’ll just keep taking big deep breaths over here and try not to freak out