No Turning Back Now

I put it all out there.

Wrote it down since it’s easier to say exactly what you are thinking/feeling/meaning that way. Stared at it for 10 min before I could hit send. But I did hit send.

I owe it to myself to be honest in what I want. There’s no shame in how I feel. Β It’s just that – how I feel.

But it’s still fucking terrifying.

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10 thoughts on “No Turning Back Now

    1. Thank you. I hope so. I wasn’t demanding in my letter, just honest in how I was feeling and that I needed to know where I stand so that I knew clearly what was expected of me. This is what I need to feel safe. I just hope he is receptive to what I had to say. I haven’t heard anything back (although he either hasn’t read it yet, or he is very much the time of person to wait to reply until he can fully devote his attention to it) so I am freaking out a bit. But the not knowing was eating me up. So it had to be done, and I just knew that in person it would be very difficult to stay on track and say the more difficult personal stuff. I wanted to make sure I cleared the air fully so that if (hopefully) we continue it can be without any reservations. Fingers crossed it all doesn’t all blow up in my face. sigh. I really appreciate your support. God I wish all of us blogger friends could go grab a drink or something in real life ya know!? lol

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      1. You did really well! I am so glad that you sent him a message and were able to express your needs and thoughts. That is so difficult to do.

        I have hope that everything will be stronger than before. And I would love to go out for drinks! Or coffee too.

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  1. Hey there been following your blog. It takes guts to be yourself and being up front with a dominant and not know what the outcome may be is unsettling. Like I said in my blog, whatever will be. Letting the chips fall where they may. I’m not blaze about it, especially if a relationship is important to you. I sincerely hope it works out well for you and Sir.

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