Belonging

The weekend is so close I can almost taste it.

I can almost feel his hands on me, his strike on my ass, his breath in my ear.  The anticipation is making me crazy.  The need to submit again is forceful.  This isn’t a game to me, this isn’t something I play at.  This is me.  I need this.  I understand these desires better than I did years ago when I first began to explore, but even if I didn’t it wouldn’t diminish the need.  It is when I submit that I feel I truly belong. Even if just for a few hours.  I belong.  I am understood.  That is one of the true beauties of D/s for me.  That total understanding and respect and admiration of each others desires.  There is no “wait you want to do what to me?”  “I’m sorry but you like that?”  “why would you want someone to do that?”

No.  There is just…joy.  Joy that someone else understands.  That someone gets it. That even though I am offering my will, my power, my obedience, he doesn’t see me as weak, or less of a person or a woman.  He sees it as beautiful.

This weekend will be interesting as well as we get to do something vanilla as well.  Wait, I get to see Sir 2 whole days in a row!?  Yay!  First the vanilla outing, where I get to meet some of his kink-friendly friends which I am both nervous and really excited about.  For it to all just be out there in the open will be a totally new experience for me.  I am also looking forward to getting to know him on a more vanilla level, because outside of all the kinky sexy fun times, I really like him as a person.  I look forward to seeing him in a more vanilla environment.  I am super excited 🙂  I hope his friends like me….

And then the next day is play day!  I think it goes without saying that I cannot wait for that.  I am craving it so badly.  I don’t know what he has in store for me but I know it will be amazing.  I just want to get lost in submission, in his pleasure.  I want to focus in on him and see what happens.  I offer myself up.  I want to belong.

Hope all of you lovelies are having a great day!